Hooked - What am I to you?

What am I to you

Tell me darling true

To me you are the sea

Vast as you can be

And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low

To whom else do you go

See I cry if you hurt

I'd give you my last shirt

Because I love you so

If my sky should fall

Would you even call

Opened up my heart

I never want to part

I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes

I can feel the butterflies

I love you when you're blue

Tell me darlin true

What am I to you

Stonned

I cant emphasize how awesome my friends are. I fell into uneven ground on the grass of Botanic Gardens and needless to send dislocate my ankle. Its a really painful process getting it back to its original position with me wailing like a baby at the sinsehs and probably grabbing my mother like I've never. My friends went out of the way to help me find a sinseh on a public holiday and send me home and all and I guess its times like these where you find out who your true friends really are. Thank you my dear girls, I love you all :)

My emotions are going on a roller coaster ride these days. Its driving me insane and I swear its no joke. Last night was an awesome testament of my crazy emotions everyone probably thought I was an emo crazy drunk. Might have spoutted rubbish everywhere without realizing what I've said and the accuracy of my statements. God bless my souls that these people will have sucky memories. And for all the irrational actions I did yesterday with the help of alcohol (like dancing), my ankle is now protesting and feeling like a bitch. I cant believe how I actually walked about zouk at godlike speed yesterday as the night progressed but slowly slow down again as my ankle started to feel the after effects of my rash actions. One of the many after effects to deal with after a self created drama night for myself. So with nothing planned for the day, I blocked my mind from any form of thoughts and feelings and curled myself up in bed the whole day reading my book which I proudly finished. If only I could tell myself to be so stonned each day, things might get better.

Stupid Dorai

I was working at the LVMH South & South East Asia over the past two days supposed to help out for Mr Arnault's visit here in Singapore. Met this dodo who is just so stupid. Shes just a freaking assistant to her big boss and thinks the world of herself. Her boss is probably jumping mad at her inefficiencies and inability to lead right now. Anyway she spouts vulgarities all the time and loves to use the loudspeaker when on the phone. So I heard that while she was trying to call one of the super big shots from xxx company to confirm something regarding the event, the guy didnt pick up and the call went to his voicemail. Thinking she put the phone down and with such a foul mouth, she started bitching about him with vulgarities. Horrors of horrors, she realized that she didnt put the phone down properly and whatever she was bitching about him was probably happily recorded on the other guy's voicemail. Ha! I cant her seriously. She is such a mess when it comes to work, no one will ever wanna work with her.

I am a drama queen

Often I face the problem of having lots of troubling thoughts but never being able to put them down in words. Its funny really. So this afternoon I chanced upon a photo on facebook. After looking at it, I was like 'hmmm, ok'. I didnt know if I should just take it as it is or maybe believe the little voice in my head and start polluting my brain with those funny little thoughts. I never can really trust a person, especially men. Im always skeptical and will try to take things with a pinch of salt. But of course there are times when Ive failed but thats not the point here. The point is I really dont know how much I should trust you. I know what alcohol can do to a person and how it can use its mighty powers to make one do things without thinking. Its like I looked at the photo and my '6th sense' just hit me. Oh well. Whatever you dont know doesnt hurt. I dont wanna know anything I shouldnt. I realized what a drama queen I am and how much I love to cause and invite drama into my life. Hmm, what should I do next? Heh.

20 Once More!

Spent almost the entire Saturday with Min! :) We caught Fame in the afternoon and went shopping for nail polish. I got my Lee Min Ho poster + file which I once hesistated getting. Haha. No worries, I didnt buy it. I got it free from the store after buying the nail polish. Love the nail polish! Got a pink and turquoise one but i seriously wonder if I'll actually use the turquoise nail polish instead of always sticking to the same pink and red shades. We met again at night at Velvet for Vance's party. Stuck around for awhile till it got a little to crowded and we went to Phuture to find Sam and her friend Sheryl. Its damn funny how Min n I ended partying with a group of people whom we really didnt know. I only knew Sam and Min only knew me. Hahah. It was awesome fun of cos after the alcohol kicked in but I guess we overdosed the alcohol a little. Haha. Before we knew it the lights were on and we ran to Zouk but it was closing too! Music at Zouk was awesome but there were SO SO SO many monkeys jumping about it was like a zoo I swear. They were such a turnoff.

I wonder if we're fading away. I dont mean to be sensitive but you seem distant - physically and emotionally - and sometimes I dont seem to be able to share with you everything like I used to. Its not that I dont want to, but it seems like I lack the extra push. So many things are happening and I dont really know whats right or wrong anymore.