LOST

I cant use a better word other than chaos to describe last night. We were supposed to pop by wine bar and go to dempsey for wine which never materialized cos we got high on the tray of shots and other drinks. You never seemed to like to wait for me and like to walk off by yourself. You love to disappear suddenly and only to reappear once again I have no idea how to keep up with that, neither do I wanna be a naggy ol' mother and ask 'Why didnt you tell me where you're going' or 'Why do you keep disappearing?' because I just have simply no idea how to keep up with you. And you suddenly disappeared and decided to go home while I was waiting at winebar because I really had no idea where to find you and don't wanna be some weird person walking around Zouk looking for an adult I lost. I was utterly upset because I just cannot understand why and how you can just leave me alone with just an sms telling me you're leaving. This is all insane. I can't keep up with you. I don't wanna discount the nice things that you've done for me, but I don't know if its enough to make me less upset. Let's just push it all to alcohol then. Maybe without alcohol and the many people we kept meeting, it would have been a better night. Not that it was very bad. Should I drop the matter and let it rest since I've already brought it up yesterday and showed my really very black face? No more second time please. **edit: after some sharing moments and analysis with the best friend, its all good now :)